golden

so take the purple and take the black, and take all of the colors of heartache back and throw them in the sea. and say you *love me*

....stay and watch the world get old




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having a difficult day

Right now, ladies and gentlemen, I feel like i might not ever finish this class. i feel like my house will always be a mess, my family will always forget about me, my damn classes will overcome me and ill literally fail two of them, and i will not ever get a degree. then i will be upwards of 50,000 in school debt and my husband will never forgive me. ill be forced to work, instead of being able to stay home and have children simply because i have to pay that debt.

i dont want to teach anymore. i want to lie down and sleep. or cry for hours.

fat

one day, melissa, you will be sitting here with a big fat pregnant belly and it will all be worth it.

here, there, everywhere

"lucky im in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where i have been"

im quite lucky to have been where i have been. i really wouldn't be HERE if i hadn't first been THERE. THERE was sometimes great, sometimes terrible, but always quite telling. always pushing me to get to somewhere. maybe that somewhere was HERE? i don't want to jump the gun but i think i am almost HERE.

anyways. HERE i am, finally deciding on a degree. No more early childhood education. i will be double majoring in english and secondary education. at this point, i'll ask you to forget all my capitalization errors. this isnt for credit ;)


soooo... one of two things is going to happen HERE. either... i am going to find out that i am a terrible writer, and im going to bullshit my way through an english degree OR i am going to steadily develop my writing and comprehension and teaching skills and become a teacher.

i am thinking it will be the first one.